thoughts for food

i feel like so many things have gone stupid so fast for me. i'm actually quite suprised and in shock most of the time (and that's a major realization for me... shellshocked).

julie chides me on my open heart policy. 'you're setting yourself up to get hurt' says she...

i dunno anything anymore/
everything which seemed so right - just went to so much shit.

i dont trust anything or anyone.

least of all myself.

sorry -
-- fuck all...

i know i've been on a perpetual downer for several months. i fucking hate it. i'm sick of it, and i'm certain anyone who gives a shit about me is sick of hearing about it too.