always searching

time to rejoin humanity and civilization. woke up, shaved my face, cup o' joe, some yogurt and grape nuts...


now what?



i can do anything i want today.

what is it?

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3:38

i would have never in a thousand years have thought this is where i would be today. this was not in the plan. this WAS NOT in the dream.

to think that i won't grow old with the woman i love...

i can't tell you how hard this is.



paint me miserable with heartache.

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3:42
for the better news, i did my first stairstep with my left leg today in four weeks. gimpy steps, for sure... but still.

then i did three stairs. then four.

five was pushing it.

...so i did five.