stability and longevity. yes, and more.
may is a fairly signifigant month for me for a lot of reasons that i dont necessarily need to go into here, but there is one thing about may 19, 2006 that i ought to expound upon a little bit.
see... way back when in 1986, before i met my beloved, before i married, before i finished school of any kind, before i knew what i wanted to do with my life... i pulled on a pair of work boots and gloves and begain a career that has now spanned 20 years. more than that, i've stayed with that company and grown with it through four buildings, three major layoffs, two occasions of across-the-board salary reductions, four promotions, seven persons i report to, five general managers, and two presidents. what i've got out of this is a reasonable benefit package and a decently sized retirement account.
now why would a person do this with the one single thing they have? i'm talking about life. my life.
my.
life.
why? i'll tell you why. because i was supposed to be stable. solid. predictable. "rule-boy".
...so i was for a long time. responsibility to me was more than a word, it was a lifestyle. you could bet, and win, on any aspect of my life because thats how i thought i was supposed to be for those i was responsible to and for.
do you think i... "settled for"? do you think i was "settled on" by my beloved? would you say that i was lesser than some other man for taking the sure thing, the known path, the one where i thought i could keep the things i cared about safe well into our old ages? the one that i took because i watched my grandfather do the same thing?
well.
...if you do i have a few words for you. they are not kind words, filled with compassion and understanding, for sure.
now, i have wanted to do other things and have paid dearly. i should be wary of looking upon this as a weakness.
see... way back when in 1986, before i met my beloved, before i married, before i finished school of any kind, before i knew what i wanted to do with my life... i pulled on a pair of work boots and gloves and begain a career that has now spanned 20 years. more than that, i've stayed with that company and grown with it through four buildings, three major layoffs, two occasions of across-the-board salary reductions, four promotions, seven persons i report to, five general managers, and two presidents. what i've got out of this is a reasonable benefit package and a decently sized retirement account.
now why would a person do this with the one single thing they have? i'm talking about life. my life.
my.
life.
why? i'll tell you why. because i was supposed to be stable. solid. predictable. "rule-boy".
...so i was for a long time. responsibility to me was more than a word, it was a lifestyle. you could bet, and win, on any aspect of my life because thats how i thought i was supposed to be for those i was responsible to and for.
do you think i... "settled for"? do you think i was "settled on" by my beloved? would you say that i was lesser than some other man for taking the sure thing, the known path, the one where i thought i could keep the things i cared about safe well into our old ages? the one that i took because i watched my grandfather do the same thing?
well.
...if you do i have a few words for you. they are not kind words, filled with compassion and understanding, for sure.
now, i have wanted to do other things and have paid dearly. i should be wary of looking upon this as a weakness.
posted by warpup at 9:22 AM
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When you find someone you love, listen to your heart and keep it full even in times of draught. You will find that there is no wealth or gift greater then true unconditional love from another.
Settle on that...
Life is good,
L.A.
i've known love like that. i've also come to know that sometimes the heart protects itself from onslaught.
life is indeed good.
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