no more fear

she had said something about living with fear and frankly, i didnt grasp it until recently... and yeah boy, do i get it.

i will never again live in fear of losing a relationship.

i'm not talking about the fear of being ripped away by death, or simply missing someone. no.

i'm talking about living in fear of saying the right thing, doing the right things, being the right person.

living in fear of losing the relationship is all about behavior modification. its about not rocking the boat, its about walking on eggshells and being perfect for the other. its about appeasement.

its about loss of self. its about becoming the need. its about restless sleep and wondering. its about guessing, and not saying and not doing.

its about silence.




fear devours dreams and creates doubt.

i will not live in fear of losing a relationship. this, my wish for you as well.