updates

so i had my blood worked up yesterday, and it appears that the warfarin is not working. either there is something in my diet that is contradicting the drug, or something... anyway, its all haywire. the docs are trying to puzzle it all together and hopefully i will have an answer and a course of action before the end of the day today.

also, i must stop smoking. the toil on my overall health is becoming apparent. specifically, i'll never be able to cease the warfarin (or its replacement) until i am off the weed for at least six months. this is not good news to me as i had hoped to be done with the drug therapy by the burn.

the bad news is that the increased and terminal swelling i am facing in my left leg is indicative of continued thrombosis developing, and coupled with the ineffectiveness of the drug therapy, i still continue to be at risk for a pulmonary embolism and resulting lung failure... er... yeah. that's death. i had thought i was done with that, but my hopes have been dashed again.

i'm worried.

anyway... i'm not posting this to seek sympathy, but support and understanding. people keep asking how i am, and this is what it is. i've stopped tobacco before, and i'll do it again. over the next 5 days i'll be limiting my consumption and be on the patch on august 16 or sooner. i'm going to black rock as a non-smoker.

for those of you who know me in meatspace, please help me with this.